Are you listening?
By Cheri Roberts, Cheri Speak & Challenging the Rhetoric
It has been nearly two-years since I moved away from Oregon. When I left it tore me up for so many reasons. First and foremost because my kids are there. Although they are all adults, I hate to be so far from them. We are close in heart where it matters, but proximity is something I have craved since the first hundred miles separated us as that Greyhound drove away.
Home Is Where The Heart Is
Oregon is the only state I’ve ever felt a true affinity with. I grew up in Colorado, spent summers in Southern California, had a couple of odd pauses in Arizona and a few other random stops. It wasn’t until I was an adult with three kids that I visited Oregon for the first time. I immediately felt ‘home’ and that feeling has never wavered.
I have had to leave Oregon three times since that first trip and each time, I left a part of me behind. The last time I left I swore I’d come back as soon as I could and although it has taken me much longer than I had
hoped expected … I am ready [and able] to go ‘home’. What’s more is, I am going home. Finally.
Plans & Preparations
Leaving California has been the goal each time I have been here. I can’t say why exactly, but I simply have always hated living in California, regardless of where in the state I lived, but especially when it’s been in this God-forsaken desert I hate so much.
I just returned from a week in Oregon making the arrangements. Papers were signed, money was paid and now I have a lot to do because I return to Oregon next month and move into a sweet lil 2-bedroom, 2-bath house on a beautiful river. The house comes with a private dock and is only four-miles to the Oregon coast. I am still having a hard time believing it’s actually happening and there is currently no one near to pinch me, but it’s all true!
I will have to have a land-line and use satellite internet, but my blog, Cheri Speak, and my show, Challenging the Rhetoric, will continue on as usual. In addition I will be focusing on completing both of my books.
There’s Health And There’s Health
I know some of you may be wondering what will happen with me and the cancer. I have had tremendous obstacles since my diagnosis. The medical community for people who are poor is abhorrent and I have been tossed around like so much flotsam and jetsam. I have had it. The stress it has caused me cannot be healthy and I believe it is only exacerbating the issues. I am in the process of getting private insurance and will be able to share more on that later when I have further details. Suffice it to say, I am walking away from California’s so-called health plan and starting anew. In the interim I have continued to juice, take various supplements alleged to help cancer and kidneys and of course Rick Simpson Oil (RSO) as I can acquire it.
The best medicine I can give myself is this new endeavor. Having a stress-free environment and a stable home in a beautiful place surrounded by nature is in order. And if things should take a turn for the worse, I cannot imagine a better more serene place to spend whatever time was allotted me.
Beginnings & Endings
There is a very long chapter of my life that I’ve been unable to turn the page on … until now.
Goodbyes that were once stuck in my throat are now ready to slip from my lips. I finally realized I have to turn that page in order to continue this story that is my life. I now understand that doing that doesn’t mean the previous pages never existed. Those pages, however dog-eared, will always be there for me to look back on with love.
I have family in California that I care about. My dad is here and he isn’t getting any younger. I have brothers here as well. This past year particularly I have had a chance to spend time with and reconnect with a few of my brothers which really meant a lot to me. My sister-in-law, my nephews and nieces are also loved and all will be missed … but …
… California just isn’t my home.
Oregon? Here I come!
Dreams do come true.